finally after five months , i blogged. have lots of thing in mind to blog, but when i log in my account, i stared blank at the screen. ok, let me start now. rewind rewind rewind to what happen one month ago. sad to say , we're over . lots of thing happened , we're unable to be like the past. i really got alot to say , alot to rant , but out of a sudden i have nothing on my mind . we've got alot of memories, really alot . but i dint forget everythign , how we started, how much we went thru , how this , how that, your still in my heart. i still cant get over you. its been a month , im still here . still msging you thou everytime i know towards the end , we will argue , but i just cant help it to msg you . i know sometimes i don sound good. because of your words. i have been trying to talk to you really nicely , i bet you know and can feel it but i still dunno why you have to say nasty things to me when im talking nicely. you know my patience is not that good, but still i will try not to argue with you . im really upset that we become this way . i got alot of things to say to you , but when i saw you . the only thing i would like to do is to hug you tightly and not utter any words. i feel sad , i do. but theres no point to be tgt, we just dont suit. im really so sad that the fact we cant be tgt anymore, sad that we don meant to be tgt. sad that we love each other but not able to be tgt. i wish i've got 1 more wish and it can come thru. i love you so much , yet .. im lost of words now. i drink, i club , to forget everything , but it only lasted for a night. the next day when i wakeup , i tot of e erything again. i wish we were tgt happily . memories is killing me softly
Written @2:21 PM.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
2010 coming ! last post for 2009. i hope i will be happier and everything goes smoothly for me and my frens my family. be it relationship or friendship; i hope nxt year i will earn more money get nice job and everything la . all the best to me and my frens,. sister family. and this yr i don think its good year / lets hope nxt yr will be better. love you alllll!!!!!!!!! and happy new year!
Written @1:50 AM.
Monday, December 07, 2009
im feeling terrible inside, i dunnoo whats the reason for crying . im alone . i handle things by myself . its hard . i tried to overcome everything . i dunno what to do , i dunno which is right and which is not . i feel that hes happier with his fren thou he said no . but i know . should i let go?
Written @5:16 PM.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
im feeling alone, lonely
Written @12:04 AM.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
by loving someone wholeheartedly , with all your heart, soul and mind doesnt mean that he/she will belong to you forever . but still , i will love you with my everything . being with you is not as smooth as i thought. i hope you will be able to face problems and obstacles with me instead of asking for breakups. its so ... i manage to patch things up again. i always try to do my best , making you happy and everything. just to make you stay by me longer. i will try because this is love. i hope you change a lil too . not much just a lil will do . a lil change will satisfy me . thats all i need . i hope/wish we will be happy everyday , when we meet any obstacle, we solve it tgt , do everything tgt, share every happiness or unhappiness tgt . i wish i wish... alot of wishess. i cant say it out , i wish we will have lots of happiness and happy tgt. i love you and i mean it. gonna end my post . bye my lover.
loving you is never hard to me. i love you hun
Written @8:10 PM.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
i saw something which i shouldnt see . i know he don mean it, perhaps he forgotten . but still, spoil my good good mood to a bad one. nevermind.
(back to blog)
dunno what to write earlier on . but now im super duper bored like one mother fcuker. really damn bored . haven bath haven anything yet . waiting for him to be back . my mood is super low . sometimes people should keep their hands to themselve . so that they wont hand itchy itchy open up files then blablabla. see things, photo or wadever shit know . it will make one person to keep thinking and thinking bout negative stuff . hahah . ahh! nvm la . got to goooooo!! busy alrdyyyyy
Written @8:43 PM.
